Well now I've gone and done it. I learned something new about myself. Alright, maybe it's not new...because I've been this way for some time. But I haven't realized it so plainly before. It's not something I want for myself, and so I must use this new knowledge as motivation to grow. To face it and own it and do what I can to change it.
I am a chicken.
Yep. I hesitate before facing my fears. I pause before jumping. I can't run full speed into the unknown. I can't just leap without a plan, a map, a prognosis. I hold back.
At some point, I learned to be a chicken, so how do I unlearn it? I'm not sure, but it may require experiments in spontaneity and courage. This could get interesting. Stay tuned...